..Its been a long time i update...

..Yeah ppl..Today is my stand by period..A boring day..Lucky no one call up YET..(keeping my fingers close)My fear of flying getting greater on every flight..Its this bad..Not dat the crews are not nice or wat..its..the..bad..wheather..I am getting so tired of experiencing again and again..The last time i ever experienced is enuf..Till now i can still remember the whole scary scene.All the crews scream(real loud)..follow by a loud "blong"..in one sec..i was making landing announcement..the next second..i saw two of the crews flying on mid air v high..i dun even know what exactly happened..daze..shock..i was fine..but my fear got worse.(In my heart..I am so so tired of my job....)

I want to get out..and i am stuck..i am totally sick of all these bad experiences i had..its this bad that at times..the fear make me feel like puking everytime before work.I am enduring all these..Keeping myself together..Console myself i will be fine....i will be..sigh.

Dunno why..every time i encounter all these..i suddenly wish i nv really quit my music at the first place..It was so much happier..even when there was dispute last time..i will soon forget..As it was nothing really that serious..One performance after the other..All the fun and laughter.All i concern was how i sing it right..and then well..things happened..and i left..for good.Gone for the new enviroment..and..so,i am here where i am today....regret.regret every time i thought of all the fun i had then...Till now i nv really get in contact with anyone there..Miss some of closer frds i made then..wonder how they are doing.........sigh.

I guess that life sometimes..U never know what u missing out..until u regret...after cuming into this job..the good thing is..i learnt to cherish..every small little things around me..i love my family more...i learn of letting go alot of things..Sometimes being simple..can make u the happiest person on earth...Be easily contented ppl..Its hard in this complicated world..yes..we learn.....


this earth am so small from the plane....

Ppl...i am not happy...at all.

So long nv update my blog....i feel so sian of working almost everyday..even on all my weekends..i still have to face all the same rountine work..all the nonsence..all the pax(whether nasty or not..)i feel like a maid.jux dat maybe i am paid much higher..So many complains right..yet,i am still stuck here.nowhere to run..Even if i hate it,i have to face it..Smile to ppl u dislike..say thank you to those who backstab u..sometimes i work so hard till..i forget i didnt have my meal the whole day..kana so many things ever since i start working this job...all nowhere to vent..endure endUre n endure..kana pax give me a v nasty stare as if i owe them alot..PPL i am v v tired...............dont feel like blogging for the time being again.......away~away..~awaY.

Mood..Bored..saMe routine job come back Once Again.

hey ppl..ever feel like waking up one fine day..knowing that its a bright morning once again...yet,u jux dun feel like waking up..at al.Damn sian rite..u feel like lying there longer in bed..and,the fact is..U cant.Hate it that much that i reaLLy need to get back to work once again..And..be that "pretender" again.Totally not me..stupia~I feel as if my smile is going to crack n scatter all into pieces on floor..(its this bad)

Back once again in my job..well these two days all the crews am nice la..but not the pax..long story..And of cuz..the one i hate most..Bad Bad wheather.haizz..I exspecially sensitive to this sia..Take for example today..I was on the way back from PLM.When..WoooHOOO~~i had a "ride" man!!Being able to feel urslf flying am bad enough..yea..guess what..I saw my galley crew flew and kana flung towards the aft door..in jux a few seconds.Cux its was a v sudden and bad one la..Imagine jux someone flying in front of u..its scary.Lucky she's experienced enuf to grab to the door.As for me??hahaha~~I was practially "hugging" to s3 seat..b4 i faster take the seat la..lol~

Thats about all la..haiz..still i cant wait for my leave to come again..haha..ohya..The air france plane crash a few days ago..sad rite..really really depressing in the sense that 228 ppl all perished..no one survive.Dunno why..this makes me linked to an incident happened a couple of mths again..A pax i still rmbr told us she's one of the survival from a plane crash..a few yrs back.she was so scared that i had to be the one siting beside her upon landing(Sec crew)..to actually console her nothing to fear..everything am alright.She was not holding my hand..she was so scared,she..grab tight.Well,of cux we landed safely la..Yet she ask me this question till now i will try to escape.."Don't u fear death at all...?"..At that very moment..I juz paused.Its not i don't..its cux i know this is my job..i..should know..(and sadly)..be prepared.

Watch this..So sad sia..Angry why the owner can do this

He was alright then the next day.....


So inhuman....They left the dog just like that......dead.

Sigh...sad la this dog..and this scene..All happened in malaysia as the person claim in the video...

..Today my last day of leave..ArhhhX!

So sad~~!haiz..Omg i cant believe my leave is coming to the very end already..I need to wait another 1 to 2 mths when i can have my leave again..sOb~..Ystdy get to stay at my cousins Ping N Bin huse though..Its been quite sometime i went stay over..Went and see my mother side Ahhh maaa..lol~she seems to look older then before sia..haiz..she was sleeping when i saw her.Time can really make one age that fast..Kind of sad isnt it..The rest of day passed v fast too..siGh~we went jalan kayu and eat the nice beancurd..haha..Had a fun time over there la!!ooohhh..haha..Laugh non stop there..Hmm~~I was "playing" instead of eating most of the time..

yupz yupz..tml is my stand by period once again..HaIZZ..dun wish to get back to work lo~~whhhhhhyssss..wat to do rite..No work means No pay..tml nida to drop Ms K mc once again..haha..My Zhu Tou gd frd.She's good lo!Now dun know in which part of phuket or thailand already..Alright..Back To Work Tml!!Hope i dun get call up~~Pray hard n V very..hard.

By the way Ppl..watch this..Susan Boyle One Last Performance In Finals..