ah abit...i will miss you alot alot....

today is the 29th..Bit just passed away ystdy..It was very very sad...I will nv ever have anymore pet after this..It really hurt too much.Just by looking at all the pics of his just now bring back so many silly n sweet memories of him..I am not a good owner..Really feel v guilty being not able to spend more time with bit..He nv fail to respond to me whenever i call out to him..The ears will always stand upright when he knows i'm calling...hai,as i type all these..it really bring out too many memories..If you say he's just an animal,you are wrong..He's more then that.He may be fussy in his food,but he nv ever have any temper at all..He will nv bite..when he's really happy,he will run round n round in his cage..Whenever i scold him and ask him not to do some of the v noisy actions,surprisingly,he knows and quiet down.He always love to dig away all his "obstacles" beddings before he had a nice lay down on his fav corner..during my lowest point as a cabin crew,he nv fail to listen to all my grumpy talks to him..(though i doubt he understand la..)His fav biscuits are two type..One will b the bunnie carrot biscuit..and the other is my often my dad will offer,"SU DA BIN"..And both of it must be crunchy,if not he wont eat.He loves all the hay too..He hates some of the ugly colours pellets,cus to him its tastless..Pellets that are "listed" not tasty to him,he will nibble n spit out..Thats how unique n special he was..So many memories...too many...he may be naughty and noisy and even greedy at times....but he is the best ever companion i had so far in all these three yrs as a pet..The cutest thing he ever done is..There's this period of time he will run to the end of the cage to welcome me back when he hear i'm opening the door...For he knew..I am home.How sweet can that be..U will be missed bit..I am writing all these down becus in my heart you are a very special one..I dun wan you to be forgotten..even every single little bits u played..Thank u bit for all the time.


love you bit..born:21st Jan 2007..RIP:28th Dec 2009....

I really like JJ lin new song..第几个100天

我把爱铺成蓝天
让不安的你一抬头就看得见
我把心烧成火焰
让怕黑的你拥着温暖入眠
我晓得时间如雪有时候会覆盖一切
但是真爱一如倔强会重生的绿叶..

第几个100天还是很有感觉
用眼睛去素描你内心的世界
第几个100天也像刚热恋
两个人手一牵连命运都改变..

我把心烧成火焰
让怕黑的你拥着温暖入眠
我晓得时间如雪有时候会覆盖一切
但是真爱一如倔强会重生的绿叶
第几个100天还是很有感觉
用眼睛去素描你内心的世界
第几个100天也像刚热恋
两个人手一牵连命运都改变..

曾有的敏感脆弱
在我的胸口你就躺下来别说了
将有的固执冲动
我也会拥抱你安抚着体谅你心疼着wooh...

第几个100天越来越有感觉
用眼睛去素描你内心的世界
管过多少100天也像刚热恋
两个人手一牵连命运都改变
当守护变信念连泪水都很甜..

Oh So randoms..haha~!

haha...Merry Christmas aNd a HaPPy New Year to everyOne..Guess Wat my dad did oN the CHristmas DAy??He decide to give himself a facial..."eye mask"
Something to make you ppl laugh for the day(:
(he's gg to hate me for this..)

Due to some reasons..the funnie pic of my dad is removed~He Knows liao...):
but...ok la...show u guys something cute(:

to eat and sleep like that is a bliss..hahha..

Anyways,happy new year and a merry Christmas to everyoNe~!!!Love Hugs Kisses to all my lovely friends and family!!(:

快乐的定义

静下来终是让人清醒些。。。

有些事不执着。。反而更快乐。

这日子，有好多问号。。。

终觉得，事情总是走了一大圈。。又回来原点。

累。。

但我更明白。。

有时，一点点的快乐。。其实，是大大的辛福。

惜福吧~

i am very very sad..............true words from the heart

Offically i am locking my blog for good.i wont be allowing ppl to access unless you are close enough with me to see...i hate it.I am having a swollen cheek..a very bloated stomach i drag for 2 to 3 weeks..now a flu..Few weeks ago still have to go tru so many amendments on my teeth...i am tired actually..i am trying my hardest to hold it altogether..I hate what i am going tru now..yet i am still...holding..always put a very happy front..pretend nothing is wrong.Working even though i shld be resting.I am totally drained..burnt..

And i really dont know why i can be laughing so happily everyday..joking..pretend nothing is wrong is killing silently inside me..I really hate this character of mine.Keep thinking of others..concerning of others,wont do any good..Yet i am this foolish...I dislike ppl around me,to be unhappy...So somtimes i try to joke around even i may be feeling very down inside..I shld just stop all this isnt it...

Keep telling myself these few days..life has its down..its alright..its alright..I am just pathetic.Its just like repeating yourself lies after lies...Totally stressed out at work...yet all the stupid rules or just a most simple of human rights...are all totally gone.All i know is...i have to do this dat this that...again again..worst..is the worst is yet to come......WHat next when you are so packed with so many informations when you just started work...vacuum floor,wipe kids backsides..clean teachers cups..coach kids to their classes when they dont want to...wipe tables chairs..white board...i almost tink i'm no diff with a cleaner.i am applying for admin...in the end...its somehow a cleaner.Giving out flyers...a must in the job it seems..wats next..wats next..can u just tell me everything at one go...i am tired of guessing whats next.

At this moment...i am telling myself its okies to feel sad..U are already working very hard..you deserve a pat on the shoulder...though everyone may sometimes treat you invisible..but thats alright.You done your job.......Right now i deserve..to just let out my tears and vent out my sadness too isnt it.....Singing i am nv good enuf to let ppl see the good in me..I left becus i just cant understand the love of singing..can let all good frds turn to strangers..Being a stewardess,for i am always tinking of others,i always be the one kana bullied and do more....Being a kind soul,i may even travel all the way home from workplace..just to get the food i forget to bring for my workmate..yet to turn out in the end the person talk behind me..I always do things without any motive..or returns...Yet things always turn in the opp way..I am tired of being nice....you tell me how shld i just believe again.

can someone pull me out from all these stupid mess i am in now...i feel totally...like the value of shit now..to the bottom of the pit..cant get out.complete darkness.

累。。。

快乐可以很简单吗？。。。

我不知道。。我发现，知懂得前进，

不懂得往后退。。

真的会让一个人好累。

不想面对。。不当一回事。。。

只是个逃避。

累了。。就可以停下。。不去理会。。。？

我好想。。。但这世界往往不由得你。。

加油吧~。。

I Love this new singer voice...張婧.

This is actually music forest new singer..love this song and mv..張婧..i bet she will make it far.22yrs old...watch it ba~the lyrics am very nice too.



This mv super touching....

My blog turning rusty...time to update

okies...its been long long ago i update..life has been quite boring..Job suxz as usual.It seems to me that boss has been really pleased with me for some reasons..i haf no idea why too...haiz..I just wish my pay has been higher.I really trying my best to adapt to the pinch in my pay cut..from a stewardess to now~...I am tired of things at work..but i just keep quiet.Ppl keep telling me..."Ahya~!Where oso the same de la!"but if u really know what i am doing now...u will be just as sian as me...I AM SO....TIRED..try not to think may make matter feels slightly better.Yet,i just cant aviod it forever ritez.....

I am angry...sad...disappointed...all these few months trying to adapt has been tough.Lucky my work mate has been really nice and patient..i really thankful for that.Its her that makes me wan tahan..And i realise one thing:Virgos ppl hide their feelings very well...i am one i realise...through these one yr be it as a cabin crew or wat...i am so good at hiding it till sometimes i dont even know why i can change my face so fast...(Lol..thats scary isnt it)Environment does force ppl to change afterall.

Ystdy pluck out my wisdom tooth..thats why today has the time to write..cus i had a 7 days mc..Yet,i haf to be back at work on friday...boss has better see how much effort i am putting...if not i will go soon...i am trying my best not to...try try.....sad.