..Its been a long time i update...

..Yeah ppl..Today is my stand by period..A boring day..Lucky no one call up YET..(keeping my fingers close)My fear of flying getting greater on every flight..Its this bad..Not dat the crews are not nice or wat..its..the..bad..wheather..I am getting so tired of experiencing again and again..The last time i ever experienced is enuf..Till now i can still remember the whole scary scene.All the crews scream(real loud)..follow by a loud "blong"..in one sec..i was making landing announcement..the next second..i saw two of the crews flying on mid air v high..i dun even know what exactly happened..daze..shock..i was fine..but my fear got worse.(In my heart..I am so so tired of my job....)

I want to get out..and i am stuck..i am totally sick of all these bad experiences i had..its this bad that at times..the fear make me feel like puking everytime before work.I am enduring all these..Keeping myself together..Console myself i will be fine....i will be..sigh.

Dunno why..every time i encounter all these..i suddenly wish i nv really quit my music at the first place..It was so much happier..even when there was dispute last time..i will soon forget..As it was nothing really that serious..One performance after the other..All the fun and laughter.All i concern was how i sing it right..and then well..things happened..and i left..for good.Gone for the new enviroment..and..so,i am here where i am today....regret.regret every time i thought of all the fun i had then...Till now i nv really get in contact with anyone there..Miss some of closer frds i made then..wonder how they are doing.........sigh.

I guess that life sometimes..U never know what u missing out..until u regret...after cuming into this job..the good thing is..i learnt to cherish..every small little things around me..i love my family more...i learn of letting go alot of things..Sometimes being simple..can make u the happiest person on earth...Be easily contented ppl..Its hard in this complicated world..yes..we learn.....


this earth am so small from the plane....