Horrible..have had enuf of everything.

Ever feel like waking up one day...and wish u have nv wake up at all....this moment..i am feeling excatly like this...i am so utterly sad n disappointed in my surroundings...till,i wish i nv get to see..feel..look..If i am born a dumb,..a deaf..maybe this earth wouldn't be so ugly isn't it...cuz this earth consist of so many ppl..and the ugliest ppl...are all around me now..it disgusts me to the max..the closest to you,in the end may not even be the one who really show concern.I dont understand..i will nv will....All these...make me think maybe having a shorter life maybe good afterall......this earth has too many things to be concern of..too many worries...and so many disgusting ppl existing.....i am really sad...try not to think...be a nicer person thinking i can change things...yet it prove that its all shit..Now i know...The mind is clearer then ever..Things force me to become a changed person.......force me to see things and accept the hard reality of life...Nv mind walking a longer way..I will make my way there..Be it alone..No one to support...My mind is strong..I wont fall.Thats..for sure.